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For the Life Mother Ch. 01

For the Life Mother Ch. 01

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“What’s the worst that could happen?” That’s what I said before I swallowed the small pill.

It was my second year at university and I had decided to be more adventurous. My first year I mostly hung around my dorm, played video games, watched porn, and neglected my homework. But this was college, sophomore year was going to be different. I figured If I wasn’t going to do my homework I may as well experience parties, drugs, and girls.

So I set out on my quest. I went to parties and gatherings, made some friends, smoked some weed, drank a lot, did some coke, adderall, went to a music festival, did some mushrooms. Honestly, it was an amazing start to a new chapter of my life. The mushrooms made me want to try acid, so I did. It wasn’t the best setting my first time but it opened my mind a bit, made me wonder about things that had never even occurred to me previously. I became obsessed with opening my mind as wide as possible. I did a lot more acid and a lot more mushrooms until a friend recommended DMT.

DMT wasn’t exactly what I had hoped. I was ready for some kind of mind blowing revelation, but what I got was this dark feeling that I had glimpsed something I shouldn’t have, like being privy to the inner workings of the universe somehow made it all less beautiful and mysterious. It might sound trite, but there’s a reason you don’t get to see behind the curtain at your favorite play.

Around this time a few of my friends were showing signs of serious addiction to some of the harder drugs I’d refused to experiment with, so I took a break from all that started porno film focusing on girls. It didn’t take long to realize I had exactly zero game. Thinking back on it, I think I was just too honest. I told girls exactly how I felt, for better or worse. The girls I liked, I scared away by professing my love to them. The girls I wasn’t sure about took offense when I told them.

So, I slowly crawled back into my cave. Late nights in a dark room, except this time I knew what I was missing out on. I had this sense of loneliness that wasn’t present before. My old favorite games that were so engaging before, now felt hollow and meaningless. I did even less homework, shut myself in my dorm and fell down the well of depression.

My grades started to suffer and I was worried I would be kicked out of university at the end of the semester. I tried to rally a few times but I just couldn’t bring myself to give a shit. I started having thoughts that I would be just another burnout, that I’d go back home without a degree and have to scrape by on minimum wage jobs.

It was at this low point that my roommate made one of his infrequent visits to our dorm. His name was Tyler and he had a girlfriend that lived off campus, so he stayed there most days and nights, lucky bastard. He was kind of a bro but I liked him, he had good energy and reminded me of the golden retriever I had when I was a kid.

“Sup buddy?” Tyler said as he walked into the muggy dorm.

“Mmm,” I said, and pulled the blankets over my head. He was interrupting my mid morning nap, which was usually japon porno how I spent my time between my morning nap and my afternoon nap.

He pulled off my blanket and to my horror, he had opened the curtains. I suddenly empathized with Dracula and his kin.

He stood over me with his annoyingly handsome face. “Dude, it’s the middle of the day, shouldn’t you be at class or… somewhere?”

“I stopped going,” I put the pillow over my head but he grabbed it. I sat up, “The fuck, Tyler?”

He looked genuinely offended, and then concerned, “You alright man?”

I sighed, “Sorry. Haven’t been sleeping well.”

Tyler looked around the room, it was littered with fast food bags and empty soda cans. “Maybe you’ve been sleeping a little too well my dude. Student counselors are free, maybe go see one, get your mind right y’know?”

I blew a single breath out my nose “Why are you here?”

His eyes widened in excitement, as if he’d forgotten. “I got somethin’ to show you!.” He held out a little clear ziplock baggie with two white pills. He looked at the bag, “Just got these, there from the friend of a friend of some girl I just met.”

“No you shouldn’t take it,” I said, answering the question I thought was coming. Ever since I started doing drugs people would come to me with stupid drug questions from time to time like, ‘can I overdose on weed? No. You cannot OD on weed, stop asking your stoner friends. “Can I have my pillow back now?”

Tyler tossed my pillow onto my computer chair and I realized I probably wasn’t konulu porno getting back to my mid morning nap, which was a shame, once my nap schedule got off track I would be much less productive.

“I need to know if it’s as good as people are saying, but I’m like, scared y’know? Well, not like, scared y’know just…”

I stared at him but he let the thought die. “So… why are you here? I don’t know what that is.”

“That’s the thing bro, it doesn’t have a name yet but supposedly it gives you anything you want.”

This time I laughed. “Oh yeah? How much did it cost?” Sweet Tyler, thinking wasn’t his strong suit.

“It was free. Said they’re getting the word out. So I came straight to you, figured if it was some hallucigenic you’d be able to handle it and let me know if the coast is clear.”

“HalluciNOgenic,” I corrected, but my mind was elsewhere, free drugs were always a red flag. It meant one of two things, either the stuff was so good, you’d want to buy more, or it was so chemically addicting that you’d need to buy more. “Tell me everything you know about it,” and I reached for the bag.

He shrugged and handed it over, “This girl said I could have anything I wanted. I told her I was flattered but in a healthy committed relationship. Then she just handed me the baggie and told me to take it with a friend. Obviously you popped into my head, so I came straight over.”

I put one of the small white tablets in my palm. “Anything you want? It must induce some kind of lucid dream.”

Tyler shrugged again.

I thought about the risks again, but out of all the drugs I’d ever taken, I didn’t seem to have any lasting addiction problems like some of my other friends. Maybe this is just what I need?

“What’s the worst that could happen?” That’s what I said before I swallowed the small pill.

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